I'm Quitting!!

what a great morning.."

actually i never thought of it nor planned and even thinking bout it... everything happen in all of sudden. Just a blinked of an eye and that's it... simply just like that...

it was 0340am

Nov 27 2011

in the middle of an early morning. almost all of us still in the middle of sweetest dream and or perhaps the worst nightmare and may be some of us just came back from party, hang out with friends and buddies, soul-mate could be, or could it be hugging with your love one on the same bed lying down naked -  tiring after making a great love.. as myself, i suddenly awake on sleeping and the first thing that came into my brain cell was, "Quitting!!" from becoming a Graphic Designer.

Indeed!!

I am quitting from Graphic Designer. 

at first i thought it was a dream... than a moment later i found myself sitting in front my my pc's and starting posting the said statement as mention above on my wall's.

yup! i do believe almost all my friends who know me well not agree with my decision. but! hey guys!! do please respect my decision and my decision is final!! either you all take it, o leave it.. It is what it is..accept it.. on top of it, it's not a wrong decision actually because according to Muslim Calendar, today is the new year of Muslim Calendar so i supposed it's a great sign which a new chapter of new history to be created. i believe it's true and it's gonna happen. besides, it's gonna be more fun, more challenging live journey, more great obstacle awaits me, and more exciting experience journey to be remembered.

so,

to all my friends, readers and my followers (if there is any), lets move on, move forward, don't be afraid of changes in our lives. it's going to a lot of fun out there.. trust me... it will be.. why i say so, because my guts telling me so and this is the fact. a brand new year and something should we explore ourselves and experienced it awaits us "out there".

come on!! join me..!!

i will share more and more my new experience and my journey with all of you...

Nothing much.. life so interesting..

where to begin..??

well... guest it been almost a week if i'm not miscounting - been away from writing.. 

been busy again - as usual with my life preparing to moving out from M'sia to Spore.. soon..

nothing much happen since from my last writing without heading - if you followed..

only things such as normal life.. going here an there.. jogging in the rain.. reading more book during my "happy time" not "that happy time" but just my happy time..

besides that,

I totally can't hardly wait to move out and keep on counting the days to took off..

mean nothing just feel so very excited to start my new life at the new place..

like i said before.. 2011 is the hardest and longest year i ever had in my life..

but..!!

in the end.. i manage to past through all the obstacle and nearly to give-up on myself...

luckily i twisted my mind-set a bit and here i am..

"Bounce back higher" than i ever imagine it...

huhuhu...

mmm...

guest that's all for today..

mmm.....

rasernyer macam da lamer gak aku xbloging..

too bz wif my personal life and some changes arrangement which to be happen somewhere in this year or perhaps Jan 2012..

speaking bout changes and arrangement nie...

last saturday aku ke singapura untuk mengurus kan perkara2 peribadi n perkara yg penting for my so called

"better bright future".. rasernyer mcm aku da inform dlm fb n in this blog whereby.. aku akan berhijrah tp cumer tempatnyer saja aku blom lagi publish kan kepada semua rakan-rakan n teman-teman yg mengenali diri ini... anyway...

secara officialnyer.. i will move out from Malaysia selewat-lewatnya pada akhir bulan Dec 2011 dan kan ber hijrah ke Singapura untuk memulakan penghidupan baru.. and suatu perjalanan hidup yg baru..

so kepada teman-teman yg kenal dgn diri ini... mungkin ader di antara kalian da tahu dan mungkin ader yang tidak tahu.. paper pn... ini adalah keputusan yang paling muktamat dan yang paling terbaek utk semua pihak dan juga utk diri aku... in another words, "win-win situation.."

perkara yang sama juga akan aku publish kan dalam fb..

so..harap maklom la k...

k.. now issued ke2 plak...

sekembalinya aku ke tanah jb nie...

while i'm updating my fb and do some cleaning all the silly junk..,

"dingdong!!"

chatting buzzing in my fb...

it was one of my fren ID...

so..

i am thinking.. "eh!! (who not to be name)"

i'm just smiling in front of my PC.

but actually it's not (who not to be name), it was (who not to be name) bf...

very straight to the point..

the conclusion of our conversation is..

WARNING in a good manner to me which to be more specific or perhaps,

should i claim the words.. off u go from my bf life

(that is what my interpretation & perception)

what's the main point will be, is not my concern..

bcos.. so far after what had happen all this little while ago, between and (who not to be name), we were only just friend and on top of that, he (who not to be name) were thinking that i am like his older brother so he can holding on whenever he needed most...

as myself... i take it positively.. i mean nothing and i do respect his decision n what he wish me to be...

cumer yg menjadi 1 big question is...

what kind of nonsense that he (who not to be name bf) trying to do here...

tu la...

aku da inform who not to be name bout this at the earlier of their relationship...

n now c la.. what tlah happen...

xpasal kan.. bende da jadi issue...

emm.....

adat org tgh kemarok bercinta....

malas yang benar nyer nk pk kan sgt bout it....

tp..

to be frank... ati nie terusik cikit la...

xsngka plak bende bley jd cam nie...

so.. rasernyer...

xsalah la keputusan yg aku buat kan....

i mean..

moving out of malaysia..

demi utk kebaikan dan kebahagian semua org...

tp.. mungkin!!

mungkin ader gak sesetgh teman yg raser sedey sebab aku akan berjauhan...

tp.. nk wat camner kan...

It is what it is; accept it.

(either it's going to control you or you're going to control it)

Harvest the good

Forgive all the rest

~ Sonia Ricotti, Unsinkable ~

so now!

i'm clear and so away from it...

my duty is done here...

please do bare in your mind - readers...

this is my personal blog.. and my major concern writing all this is one of the way how i'm expressing my self and my feelings towards the environment surround me and to release it out from my brain cells... 

i mean nothing to condemn  nor to humiliate my friends and whoever involve in my daily life...

IT JUS AND EXPRESSION OF HUMANITY IN DAILY LIFE

till then...

as usual..

i leave all of you without fullstops but.. just a comas and see you back in Singapore very soon...

What A Great Life...

Sunday!!

yup today is sunday as many people out there specially those whose is currently working, Sunday is the day to rest, to out for date and some utilize sunday as the day to do cleaning the house or perhaps rooms maybe and some use it as to gathering with all friends, family and the loves once..

yeah as for me, sunday is just like others day in my life.

but unlike this particular this sunday, i woke-up at 7am go to bath and had my light breakfast with fresh cold milk. huhuhu!! i'm so in luv with fresh cold milk...

(ok now put aside of my milk..)

right after that, i'm sitting on my bed and looking around in my room. after few moments, i found out that myself cleaning my room,, sweeping the floor, and rearranged back all the position of each and every items in my room. once i've done that, i'm taking bath again after my body getting dirt of all the dust.. huhuhuhu..

a while after that,

I'm sitting at my dinning table to enjoy my complete breakfast for 2nd round... this time a complete meal.. simply having a roti prata with a cup of Tea with less sugar (as usual) and continue with cracker biscuits with nutella, olive butter and strawberry jam which i bought it back in Australia. The taste so yummy till i certainly forget that I'm in Malaysia.

hahahaha...

while enjoying my crackers, suddenly my mind flying away from my body..

it's a flash back of what I've been through few years back.. the hard time.. the happy time.. and so much more until here i am.. what sonia says in her book Unsinkable were right... 

"just trust that everything is unfolding the way it is supposed to.don't resist. surrender to what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be" - Sonia Ricotti

after what had happen.. here I am.. still stand up straight on my own shoes.. 

 now only i realize.. life is so great and so fun with full of adventure, colorful, and multi-patterns... who says "life is isn't fair?" what a words... life is very fair to all of us.. only things is.. our Perceptions and Interpretations is concern. if we change our perceptions and interpretations a bit and take a time off to think out of the box, surely we can bounce back higher from the bottom rocks..

 wah!!! now I'm speaking like Sonia Ricotti.

anyway,
i can't hardly wait for this coming Jan 2012 whereby I'm leaving Malaysia and move in into Singapore to star my new life back there.. to all my friends and to all those that very close to me (you know who you are), I will always remember all of you and keep in touch and maybe, I will visit you someday.. for sure I will.. or perhaps you guys can visit me back in Singapore if you insist.



well I guest it's about time for me to sign off..
as usual..
should I leave you all with comas instead of fullstops...

2011 A Long Ride...wheres the new begining is about to start...

Indeed.. iti is a very long ride of 2011..

all the hard moments, the tears, laughter, happiness, excitement, overwhelm, the pain and so much more had happen through out this year - the year of 2011.

seems like it's been a littler while i left out this blog.. I've been busy lately with my health, and some personal stuff. I but i never forget to write it in my silly blog. after what had happen and will happen next, i am ready for it..

yeah!!

some people did said,

"U've change ever since you came back/"bounce back from the bottom"

hahaha it's sound funny to me and still can smile while i'm writing this blog. But allow me to share something with you readers out there.. if there is any.. or followers perhaps.. if you insist to be..

there is one fine day right after i went for my left eye check-up, i straight away taking a public bus to well-known shopping mall. had a walk all alone back there try to observe my surrounding and the environment of the city of Johor Bahru. later after that, i go into bookshop and trying to find something  for to read to fill in my time while doing nothing in specific - at that moment.

finally, i manage to grab one book written by Sonia Ricotti, Unsinkable..

it's a great book and i do enjoy it for few times..

ok! enough for that..

right after i finish my 1st time reading the book, i feel totally like a new people.. new person..

that book totally open my mind widely to observe and to see what is "real world" and what "fantasy world"

i can control mind instead of the other way round.. i can still smiling in any situations i might be.. i can accept as what it is and leave the past as what it was and walk away without carrying any extra baggage..

thanks to Sonia Ricotti!!

as for now..

i am happy because most of my friends happy and some get exactly as what they wanted to be.. 

by the way..

this year is the last year i stay and live in Johore Bahru.

starting on Jan 2012 i will moving in into Singapore and build a new life back there all alone with my facebook on left side and on the other side will be my blog. Friends and family will always in my heart, my soul, and my blood so i can live on and move forward without any doubt about what may or might come toward me.

I am ready for anything..!!

till then...

shall i leave u, my readers and followers - if there is any, with a "commas" instead of "fullstops"