i'm so weak..!! and I'm hopeless romantics...

lately i just came back from.. 

somewhere in Johor state..

old town.. i mean very old town.. 

but nowadays that place developing into some sort of small town

very small town..

anyway that not my point..

my point is.. 

there is something happen back there..

i been there for the reason of meeting friend.

just meeting.. 

had a cup of coffee perhaps and or 

catch some movies during my leisure time...

at first i am thinking to check-in a low cost room 

cause i'll be staying just one night and 

on the next day same about after lunch on the early evening, 

i'm heading back to my origin place..(Home).

then i change my mind..

i reach there bout 1830 

and had a walk all the way to that such person work place 

and showing myself.. which i'm in town already..

not surprising cause 

everything went well..

by 2200 we move out from that such person work place

and straight heading back to that such person house 

which located near by..

we had rest say about 10-15 minute.. 

then we had a walk some most popular place that every teens hang out at..

quite interesting place..

relaxing and enjoyable.. 

with the light of heart of the small town..

twinkling stars in the nights..

it's so beautiful..

a bit cold.. 

but.. 

i get used to it..

we talk and talk.. 

and a lot of talking..

i'm not sure what time we go back home.. 

i supposed it late.. 

its after midnight..

once we reach at home..

as usual myself before sleeping..

had smoking than go to sleep...

like i said earlier...

i meant nothing just a visit and meeting friend.. 

that all...

but in the end.. 

it end up with silly incident...

silly me...

why i say so..

here we goes...

we sleep on the same mattress, 

with one pillow and 

sharing the same blanket..

sound fishy isn't it..

after we make comfort of each other..

then we ready to sleep..

i hug that such person...

in a while...

i can't hold it any longer...

i start kissing that such person neck... 

ears.. and back of that such person body..

than it goes to lips.. 

and....

i guess you all know what happen next...

conclusion is..

yes we do it...

i don't know why i did that...

which from the first place i meant nothing...

on the next day we had a movie and 

before i heading back to my home..

we had a drink at nearby the bus terminal...

we continue talking..

by 1900 my coach is ready to move on...

it's kinda hard for me to leave that such person...

was it because we had sex that night.. 

or..

was it because i'm too easy to fall in love 

with just one sex...?

well... seriously..

i've no answer for that at this current moment..

and now...

i'm having problem with my own feeling...

kinda missed that such person..

but before i'm updating my blog.

i saw that such person photo with somebody else 

hugging...

jealous..?

i am jealous...

but.. 

that such person already remind me 

and said to me.. 

some sort like a sign or something...

"if you can't open my heart.. don't blame me"

 that is what that such person said to me...

well...

that's it...

another hopeless romantics..

just be it...