"kekadang biler org yg paleng kiter sayang da tglkn kiter wat slamernyer.. idop ni jd sunyi SEPI... umpama sampan yg xberdayung, ditiop angin ke hulu dan mungkin ke hilir di lautan terbentang luas...
kat maner kiter nk ngadu penat kiter, marah kiter, bermanjer dan mungkin dimanjer kan.. berseronok, menangis.. bersuke ria...
adakah teman baru dan atau teman yg sedia ada dpt memahami diri kiter?? dapat tahan dengan kerenah kiter?? dan yg paleng terpenting skali.. adakah mereka tu smua (teman baru/yg sedia ada) senantiasa bersama dgn kiter pabila kiter memerlukan mereka....?"
aieshshariff da penat...
da penat kesunyian..
kesepian...
keseorangan...
da terlalu penat sesgt....
tangis n tawe aieshshariff xkan ader sesape yg tawu...
luaran saja org nmpk aieshshariff nie "giler", hepi...
senantiase tersenyum riang...
hakikatnyer....
hanya diri ini n org yg tlah tiada saje yg tawu.....
actually...
every year on Oct 4th - Oct 7th/8th aieshshariff akan kuar johor xkira kemana... jnji aieshshariff akan berjauhan utk sementara waktu daripada kengkawan yg rapat, agak rapat, kengkwn yg biaser2 jek.. or who ever noe me....
the reason is because...
in every of my birthday eve, on birthday and after the day...
there is sumthing bad wil happen to me and to any of my frens yg ader bersama aieshshariff ketika itu..
they will get the tempiasnyer...
INI BUKAN 1 REKAAN..
tp bnde ni da terjadi...
and biaser nyer aieshshariff xakan beri tawu sesape pn even my own fmly kemana aieshshariff g on that dat particular day...
aieshshariff cume ckp aieshshariff on holiday... that's all..
my handphone, email or any social network, i will shut it down..
in another words should i claim.. MIA for a moment.
but this year quite different from previous2 yr...
every year it will 3 bad things happen to me... but this year.. only 2 bad things.. the final one not yet...
i'm expecting sumting bazaar will happen...
i trust my guts..
and it's telling me.. it's close but not too close enough...
aieshshariff da ader reser...
aieshshariff xbley tdo semalam.. tetiber raser awkward.. tetiber ilang focus... feelin down in sudden without any reason..
before this it happen to me and it end up right after 4days of my birthday whereby i've lost my very big precious in my life..
this year da more than 3days.. i'm kinda scared which i might or will loosing for more worst and superb bazaar in my life...
i wonder....
all this happen and start on my childhood year.. i was 7years old dat time.. very young.. very energetic... very healthy..
FIRST
my fmly n i live in soe place called "Jeng Qui" a medium cost kinda apartment with 2 storey. 3rooms and only 1 room my fmly rent it out to out sider.. there is a "Mamat Bujang" named Abg Haris. he all alone in that room. til 1 fine day.. maser all my family xder kat uma only left me n my elder sister. (she sleeping her room that time...)
so, abg haris nie called me and offered me to read some books in his rooms. (i luv reading... luv it so much til now i still luv reading books..)
so..
aieshshariff pon masok dlm bilik dia and as he said.. reading books..
i dun noe what kind of book that i read dat time...
while i'm reading.. abg haris tros tanggalkan sua pendek aieshshariff.. maser tu he asked me to sit on the chair yg ada dlm bilik tu...
aieshshariff memang tak prasaan before i came into his room he already half-naked..
once he pull down my pant's, dia tros menggesek-gesekkan kemaluan dia dicelah kelengkang aieshshariff....
what will happen after dat... aieshshariff da xingat..
what i did remember.. abg haris did gave me rm20 sen (time tu RM20sen besar sgt mcm rm5 as for now)
while he said "abg! (he my nick's), jgn kasi tawu sesape taw.. ingat k..!!"
i was 7YEARS OLD!!
what do u aspect..??
that time happen exactly on my birthday..
Oct 6th...
now aieshshariff da ber umor 32years...
SECOND
i was 13 years old..
at our new house in Taman Perling - Kg Teluk Serdang Pinggir (rumah setinggan).
My dad buta huruf, xtawu membaca and he werk in Pasar as tukang sembelih ayam... there is a moment.. the day before my birthday (Oct 5th)
my mom wanted to do some small celebration on my birthday.. she cooked me nasi ayam cos i luv ayam goreng crazily..
so my dad pun tangkap ayam peliharaan kami.. and sembelih it... he need an assistant to sembelih dat ayam...
(aieshshariff anak yg ke 2 dlm 3 adeq bradeq time tu...)
so he ask me to hold some parts of that chicken while he wanted to sembelih it... i'm too scared wif blood.. so..
mase pisau tu da sampi kat leher ayam tu.. aieshshariff tutop mater and ntah cam maner ayam tu struggling and aieshshariff teraser gesek kan pisau tu teraser sesgt kat leher ayam tu and tangn aieshshariff terlepas drpd holding that particular part.. so ayam tu struggling on the ground wif pancutan darah yang mcm paip air pecah... til muker aieshshariff terkne percikan darah ayam tu..
aieshshariff tergamam n tros lari masok dlm uma..
mak aieshshariff terperanjat and ask me what's wrong..?
aieshshariff xckp paper tros mandi and pas mndi aieshshariff tros masok dlm bilik...
time tu aieshshariff terdengar..
ayah berbual dgn mak.. and there is phrase yg aieshshariff tak kan luper sampi mati..
he said "hhmmm!! ade anak lelaki pon xbley harap..."
what do u feels if u hear that phrase from ur dat o mom???
7days aieshshariff xmkn.. aieshshariff bebtol traser ati...
mak pujok aieshshariff.. but ati aieshshariff keras.. ati aieshshariff tegeng.. ego aieshshariff tinggi...
till arwah atok aieshshariff yg pujok aieshshariff.. (arwah tok stay in spore..) riter after mak bgtau arwah tok bout what happen.. arwah tok tros dtg jb n pujok aieshshariff...
dekat 2 minggu arwah tok stay in jb..
dats y law sesape yg maki or kutok sumting bout my dad.. aieshshariff tak traser langsong.. but not my Arwah atok.. aieshshariff akan ngamok giler...
THIRD..
after 3days of my birthday..
aieshshariff hilang org yg paleng aieshshariff sayang..
Arwah atok meninggal...
arwah nenek meninggal 7 days before arwah atok meninggal,
aieshshariff kat pejabat..
maser tu aieshshariff keje kat Kilang Flextronics Industry (M) Sdn. Bhd. at Tampoi Industrial Estate as HR & Admin Assistant..
aieshshariff kene OT mlm tu..
arwah nenek meninggal pon dpt cuti 1 ari jek...
mase tu la aieshshariff raser exactly as what i felt rite now..
feelin so down in sudden..
so lonely...
sunyi sepi sgt2...
kwn2 plak tu smuanyer bz dgn hidup masing2...
aieshshariff xsalah kan kwn2 aieshshariff ...
they all pon ade life dorg sndrik..
cumer time tu traser sesgt mcm xder sesape kat dunia nie...
suddenly, abg sdarer aieshshariff call from spore..
telling me arwah atok da meninggal atas sejadah after solat maghrib with my abg sdarer...
sori..
aieshshariff ter lalu pilu n sedey segt nk tros kan citer nie..
i'm crying while typing...
terlalu banyak sgt kenangan aieshshariff dgn arwah atok..
terlalu bnyk sgt..
aieshshariff xbley nk tros kan...
kat maner kiter nk ngadu penat kiter, marah kiter, bermanjer dan mungkin dimanjer kan.. berseronok, menangis.. bersuke ria...
adakah teman baru dan atau teman yg sedia ada dpt memahami diri kiter?? dapat tahan dengan kerenah kiter?? dan yg paleng terpenting skali.. adakah mereka tu smua (teman baru/yg sedia ada) senantiasa bersama dgn kiter pabila kiter memerlukan mereka....?"
aieshshariff da penat...
da penat kesunyian..
kesepian...
keseorangan...
da terlalu penat sesgt....
tangis n tawe aieshshariff xkan ader sesape yg tawu...
luaran saja org nmpk aieshshariff nie "giler", hepi...
senantiase tersenyum riang...
hakikatnyer....
hanya diri ini n org yg tlah tiada saje yg tawu.....
actually...
every year on Oct 4th - Oct 7th/8th aieshshariff akan kuar johor xkira kemana... jnji aieshshariff akan berjauhan utk sementara waktu daripada kengkawan yg rapat, agak rapat, kengkwn yg biaser2 jek.. or who ever noe me....
the reason is because...
in every of my birthday eve, on birthday and after the day...
there is sumthing bad wil happen to me and to any of my frens yg ader bersama aieshshariff ketika itu..
they will get the tempiasnyer...
INI BUKAN 1 REKAAN..
tp bnde ni da terjadi...
and biaser nyer aieshshariff xakan beri tawu sesape pn even my own fmly kemana aieshshariff g on that dat particular day...
aieshshariff cume ckp aieshshariff on holiday... that's all..
my handphone, email or any social network, i will shut it down..
in another words should i claim.. MIA for a moment.
but this year quite different from previous2 yr...
every year it will 3 bad things happen to me... but this year.. only 2 bad things.. the final one not yet...
i'm expecting sumting bazaar will happen...
i trust my guts..
and it's telling me.. it's close but not too close enough...
aieshshariff da ader reser...
aieshshariff xbley tdo semalam.. tetiber raser awkward.. tetiber ilang focus... feelin down in sudden without any reason..
before this it happen to me and it end up right after 4days of my birthday whereby i've lost my very big precious in my life..
this year da more than 3days.. i'm kinda scared which i might or will loosing for more worst and superb bazaar in my life...
i wonder....
all this happen and start on my childhood year.. i was 7years old dat time.. very young.. very energetic... very healthy..
FIRST
my fmly n i live in soe place called "Jeng Qui" a medium cost kinda apartment with 2 storey. 3rooms and only 1 room my fmly rent it out to out sider.. there is a "Mamat Bujang" named Abg Haris. he all alone in that room. til 1 fine day.. maser all my family xder kat uma only left me n my elder sister. (she sleeping her room that time...)
so, abg haris nie called me and offered me to read some books in his rooms. (i luv reading... luv it so much til now i still luv reading books..)
so..
aieshshariff pon masok dlm bilik dia and as he said.. reading books..
i dun noe what kind of book that i read dat time...
while i'm reading.. abg haris tros tanggalkan sua pendek aieshshariff.. maser tu he asked me to sit on the chair yg ada dlm bilik tu...
aieshshariff memang tak prasaan before i came into his room he already half-naked..
once he pull down my pant's, dia tros menggesek-gesekkan kemaluan dia dicelah kelengkang aieshshariff....
what will happen after dat... aieshshariff da xingat..
what i did remember.. abg haris did gave me rm20 sen (time tu RM20sen besar sgt mcm rm5 as for now)
while he said "abg! (he my nick's), jgn kasi tawu sesape taw.. ingat k..!!"
i was 7YEARS OLD!!
what do u aspect..??
that time happen exactly on my birthday..
Oct 6th...
now aieshshariff da ber umor 32years...
SECOND
i was 13 years old..
at our new house in Taman Perling - Kg Teluk Serdang Pinggir (rumah setinggan).
My dad buta huruf, xtawu membaca and he werk in Pasar as tukang sembelih ayam... there is a moment.. the day before my birthday (Oct 5th)
my mom wanted to do some small celebration on my birthday.. she cooked me nasi ayam cos i luv ayam goreng crazily..
so my dad pun tangkap ayam peliharaan kami.. and sembelih it... he need an assistant to sembelih dat ayam...
(aieshshariff anak yg ke 2 dlm 3 adeq bradeq time tu...)
so he ask me to hold some parts of that chicken while he wanted to sembelih it... i'm too scared wif blood.. so..
mase pisau tu da sampi kat leher ayam tu.. aieshshariff tutop mater and ntah cam maner ayam tu struggling and aieshshariff teraser gesek kan pisau tu teraser sesgt kat leher ayam tu and tangn aieshshariff terlepas drpd holding that particular part.. so ayam tu struggling on the ground wif pancutan darah yang mcm paip air pecah... til muker aieshshariff terkne percikan darah ayam tu..
aieshshariff tergamam n tros lari masok dlm uma..
mak aieshshariff terperanjat and ask me what's wrong..?
aieshshariff xckp paper tros mandi and pas mndi aieshshariff tros masok dlm bilik...
time tu aieshshariff terdengar..
ayah berbual dgn mak.. and there is phrase yg aieshshariff tak kan luper sampi mati..
he said "hhmmm!! ade anak lelaki pon xbley harap..."
what do u feels if u hear that phrase from ur dat o mom???
7days aieshshariff xmkn.. aieshshariff bebtol traser ati...
mak pujok aieshshariff.. but ati aieshshariff keras.. ati aieshshariff tegeng.. ego aieshshariff tinggi...
till arwah atok aieshshariff yg pujok aieshshariff.. (arwah tok stay in spore..) riter after mak bgtau arwah tok bout what happen.. arwah tok tros dtg jb n pujok aieshshariff...
dekat 2 minggu arwah tok stay in jb..
dats y law sesape yg maki or kutok sumting bout my dad.. aieshshariff tak traser langsong.. but not my Arwah atok.. aieshshariff akan ngamok giler...
THIRD..
after 3days of my birthday..
aieshshariff hilang org yg paleng aieshshariff sayang..
Arwah atok meninggal...
arwah nenek meninggal 7 days before arwah atok meninggal,
aieshshariff kat pejabat..
maser tu aieshshariff keje kat Kilang Flextronics Industry (M) Sdn. Bhd. at Tampoi Industrial Estate as HR & Admin Assistant..
aieshshariff kene OT mlm tu..
arwah nenek meninggal pon dpt cuti 1 ari jek...
mase tu la aieshshariff raser exactly as what i felt rite now..
feelin so down in sudden..
so lonely...
sunyi sepi sgt2...
kwn2 plak tu smuanyer bz dgn hidup masing2...
aieshshariff xsalah kan kwn2 aieshshariff ...
they all pon ade life dorg sndrik..
cumer time tu traser sesgt mcm xder sesape kat dunia nie...
suddenly, abg sdarer aieshshariff call from spore..
telling me arwah atok da meninggal atas sejadah after solat maghrib with my abg sdarer...
sori..
aieshshariff ter lalu pilu n sedey segt nk tros kan citer nie..
i'm crying while typing...
terlalu banyak sgt kenangan aieshshariff dgn arwah atok..
terlalu bnyk sgt..
aieshshariff xbley nk tros kan...
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