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"beep!!" "beep!!"
incoming message...

it was My I..

OMG!!
biler aku bacer jek msg My I, tetiber traser tersentak.. gamam.. terkejut..
tros terhenti on what i am doing dat moment..

"shard sowi ek, owg kene gak tros terang... owg raser owg x leh syg shard sepenuhnya..."

tu la txt My I to me...
mau xsewel aku dibuatnyer...
it was 16:51 dated Oct 27th 2011..

i never forget dat.. never in my life..
den.. aku tros call My I, but none of my call been answered..
sedey.. sebak termat sgt.. pilu.. pedey umpama bisa menusuk jao ke dlm ati yg msh lg terluker..
so..
we just berbalas msg yg panjng berjela..
aku cuber fight for my true luv..
but.. aku goyah.. rebah didlm perjuangan cinta sndrik..
tewas dgn kesilpn yg tlah aku lakukan sndrik...
nyesal yg teramat sgt.. tp nk wat camne kn.. smua bender da pn berlaku..
kini aku mesti kuat kan smgt utk tempohi sgalanyer...

ntah smpi biler.. aku pn xtawu n xder jwpn nyer...

titisan demi titisan air mater berterusan..tnpa henti..
stiap grak gri ku.. dia snantiasa terbyg di dpn mater nie...
slerer mkn berkurangan... tdo ku smakin kurang..
kshtn smakin xterjg... asek memikirkan kesilapan yg tlah aku lakukan..
which i'll never forgive myself...

kekesalan yg susah nk dimaafkan n nk diluper kan...

inilah cinta yg paleng ikhlas.. paleng mendlm after how many years i left behind my back...

22:15
dated Oct 28

My I txt me again..
"syp jek?"

sdg dudok ditepian pantai.. cuber menenangkan jiwa yg tgh huru hara..
biler dpt msg dari My I... ati ni smakin sebak.. smakin pilu..
i call My I..
we speak say about more than 1/2 an hour while i'm driving...
aku menangis biler mendgr suarer nyer...
terlalu merindui nye..
terlalu menyanyangi nyer...
respect to My I even we're like this.. but My I still concern bout my..
health.. pemakanan.. my smoking habit..
n My I dun want me to be sad n cry because of My I..

i'm too sad bcause of myself.. too stupid of what i've done..
because of me, My I become noty and found somebody else..
and now this is it.. here i am... feelin guilty every inch i step fwd..
hopping for miracle in this situations...

am i gonna be strong enough to face through all this after all what i've done..?

"True Luv is Very Painfull but so beautiful if the reflections is what as we expected to be.."