"..sepandai-pandai tupat melompat, ke tanah jua jatuhnya.."
Hidup kita di kelilingi ramai kawan, teman, rakan dan sahabat. Dan apabila kita di landa kemurungan atau apa jua masalah, mereka inilah tempat kita meluahkan isi hati kita. Tapi mungkin tidak semua kita luahkannya... mungkin ada yang lebih selesa mengadu nasib, meluahakan isi hati dengan ahli keluarga, mungkin adik beradik dan atau ibu dan bapa (bagi yang rapat dengan ahli keluarga). Bagi yang lebih selesa dengan sahabat, mka disitulah tempat mereka meluahkan isi hati yang terpendam nun jati didalam suatu sudut hati yang membuatkan kemurungan. Tapi ada juga yang lebih selesa dengan hanya menulisnya diatas sekeping kertas dan mungkin membina blog dan sebagainya. Masing-masing menpunyai cara masing-masing yang lebih selesa meluahkan kata hati yang terpendam dan ada juga yang meluahkannya dengan cara yang agresif atau melakukan sesuatu dalam bentuk praktikal seperti, sesuatu aktivi yang mungkin ianya adalah salah satu hobi dan atau sesuatu yang boleh memberhentikan minda kita untuk berhenti memikirnnya untuk seketika. In the end, simply pick which is which is your way to let it out..
Actually, there is something BIG happening last night. VERY BIG i mean. Memang agak memeranjatkan diri ini but, like I've mentioned as the tittle writen, and that's it... Indeed, recently ni I'm not a great health. It was before my trip to some part of Malaysia (which i refuse to mention it in here).
Had a very bad cough, headache and some others things that occured my healthy. Pitty merite, perhaps not because.. well if there is any silent reader's out there reading it, he/she know me very well... me just nothing but skinny freaking boy the last species and stubborn.. very stubborn. Indeed i am very the KEPALA BATU.. and DEGIL.
So yesterday after solat maghrib, i think... kepala ni da macam nk meletop. My cough, owhman.. speaking of the devil.. hahaha.. damn me.. so i simply took 2 tablet of panadol extra and rest myself in the room. Fall asleep for few hours and suddenly terdengar suara orang yang familiar sangat and mentioned some of the name that i know them.. when i open my eyes, wow!! it was my Kak Odah.. in my mind were saying.. "I'm a dead-man".
We had a long conversation, i mean a very long conversation and there is a slight yelling, and shouting in between. Should i say a small fight? perhaps it is.. I've cancel my flight ticket, discontinue my medication and stop my medicine, quiting my job, and few others things i let go and drop it off from my "invisible extra baggage". At first, she not agree with my decision, but.., after yelling and shouting and then we both sitting at one corner, I'm smoking and she just looked at me and be silent for a moment. After a while, she came to me, took away my cigarette and hug me very tide.. (that's my weakness..)
So we start all over again. I mean our conversation. In that conversation, she mention,
"if you still stay with your dicision, i will respect that. But do open your eyes and mind widely like 'an eagle', see clearly you territory and think what may come in between.. if that is what you want, do not hesitate to proceed. I only watching back there. If you change your mind, there is 2 options either you go or we do it here. Tomorrow morning during our breakfast I'm expecting your answer. Sorry sayang I have to be firm with you this time. Think wisely. Think every aspect every angle, everyone, and everything. Everybody love youand everybody needs you and I need you too and so all the peoples that connected with-need you."
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